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6/13/11

I'm not sure if we still need to do the blogs for the last day of school, but I'm posting one just in case. Today's the official last day of school, which I did not go to. My parents called to school to tell them I'm going to be absent today. I thought it wasn't going to be a big day, and that nothing big would happen. However, when I went to school for basketball practice, I got three awards. I got three awards, and I was appointed class representative. I'm kind of curious what awards I got because I didn't really expect to get any awards. I asked Danny why I was appointed for class representative, and he told me I was responsible and Pamela likes me. I'm not crazy about the fact that I'm a class rep, but I'm not disappointed about it. It's good that Pamela likes me, and that people think I'm responsible! The only thing is that, I'm really lazy, and I'm not sure if I'll be a good class rep. Anyways, I'm going to try my best, be responsible, and get rid of my laziness once in a while.

6/9/11

I just got back home from the end of year school event. I am so tired that I could literally fall asleep while typing this blog post. I danced like crazy tonight, I danced like how I would dance if I was in a dance back in California. It was really fun, but super tiring at the same time! It was really cool but dangerous that there were four chairs all put together to make a small stage. When I got up there, I felt like I was going to fall face flat onto the floor at times.
I can't believe we have a test tomorrow morning, I just want to sleep in like summer. I can't wait til summer, I'm so excited that you can't even imagine. I got all my summer planned out, and I really hope it'll go as planned. If it doesn't, I'm going to be so disappointed that I'll cry! My summer will be busy, but at least I'll still be able to sleep in! I love sleeping in, it makes me so happy and free! I hate having to wake up for school, or practice or rehearsal, it makes me feel caged.

6/8/11

I'm super tired from musical rehearsals, even though it's not full dressed. It's not full dress, meaning makeup, hair, costumes, everything, but costumes are already enough. Our mission band costume finally came, and I don't really like it that much. It's gigantic on all the mission band members, and the pants are humongous too! The backstage dressers tried to help by pinning it small with those needles. However, it kept on poking me whenever I move or take out the costume. I'm really tired of musical now, it's not fun anymore. I only joined musical production because it seemed fun, but not anymore. It was kind of fun when Ms. Alison was here, but definitely not now, with all this mess going on. The dress rehearsal are really messy, and there's no one to change it. A lot of people, like almost everyone, doesn't like how the director right now is directing. He doesn't really know what he's doing, and the reasons for his unreasonable decisions. I think a lot of people are going to agree with me that no one's going to participate in the musical next year. I heard that a lot of people are already deciding that they're not doing musical next year. I kind of want to do the same, because I don't like musical anymore, especially now. I just hope that Ms. Alison will either come back or come and save us!

6/7/11

I am so excited for summer, I can't wait till summer break is here! Today, I took two finals, well, technically one final and one test. I don't know how I did on my finals and tests, and I really don't care that much. I am finally free from test, quizzes, finals, homework, and stress! I can finally relax, sit at home, and feel comfortable and happy. Even though there's still school days left, I have tech week. It's where all the musical people practice or rehearse at the theater. We still have to wake up really early, and we still work. The only thing different is that we have no homework, and it's probably more fun than going to school. I'm excited but yet lazy to go to rehearsals tomorrow, Thursday, and Friday.
I'm just so happy right now, I feel overjoyed with relaxation. I know that kind of doesn't make sense, but I'm just really happy, relaxed, and kind of tired. I got my yearbook today, I have almost all the seniors sign it. I didn't get some signatures, and I really want to get every one's signatures. However, I have tech week for the rest of the week so I can't. I'm just going to ask all the orchestra and musical people sign it, when there's time. I can't believe it's the end of the year, I'm so excited! YAY SUMMER BREAK!

6/6/11

Wow, I totally flipped out today after school. Well I kind of have a legit reason, to me that is. To boys or whoever else, it might not be a big deal, but for me it is. Seriously, one of the things I care most about is boys being gentlemen. If you don't have your respect for girls, I don't have respect for you. Today during basketball practice, the sun was burning hot outside. The girls basketball team wanted to practice under the shade. The captain already told the boys' captain that from now on, the girls are practicing under the shade. However, the stupid new captain said that "oh, naw, not today." Because of that, the girls had to practice an hour and a half under scorching rays of fire from the sun. Seriously, are they even male?! Do they even have respect or courtesy towards girls? What sissies!
Another thing that gets me mad is people yelling in my face, especially if it's just for fun. NO ONE, and I really do mean NO ONE, yells in my face. After practice, I just want to change out of the sweaty clothes. I wanted to change in E13 because it's closer, and almost no one is in it, except for Kyle. So, Jingmin and I asked him to leave. Suddenly, Tim and other people come in and start hogging up the place. I just wanted to tell him to leave because I just needed like 2 minutes to change, but no. He had to go and yell in my face, and other people laughed. I understand that he meant it as a joke, but it's not funny. It's not even close to funny. The same guy made the whole girls basketball team to practice under the sun, also yells in my face thinking it's funny. I haven't been this angry in a LONG time. I don't feel like studying or do anything, I just want to punch that guy in the face so hard his family can't even recognize him.

6/5/11

I went to the graduation on Saturday, and I cried! I'm so sad that they seniors are leaving, I don't want them to leave! I was kind of crying and then Derek asked "why are you crying?!" I just laughed and said "because all my senior friends are leaving." Then Derek just laughed at me and walked away. I can't believe they're actually graduating, and leaving us. I know they're going to visit, but not being able to see them just kills me. Thinking about how PAS is going to be when they're gone is just...painful. I hate how empty the school's going to be. I hate how I won't be able to see them everyday in the halls, or have fun with them during practices. I'm going to miss the seniors so much, have fun in college!
Saturday was a really awesome day, it was overall a happy day. First, graduation went really well, the seniors are finally graduating! After, I went home and my brother took me out to dinner. My parents are out of country, so he drove me downtown and we had ramen. I actually had a really good time, because we kept laughing. I now realize how childish my brother and I are. It's really nice to know that my brother actually cares about me, rather than just knowing he exists.

6/2/11

I hate hypocrites, people who don't keep their promises. I especially hate it if that hypocrite is a teacher or adult. Adults are always saying that they're responsible and they keep their promises, but it's a lie! For the musical rehearsal today, we were suppose to run through from 1:30 to 4 in the afternoon, that's it. After four o'clock, we could go, we didn't have to stay extra or whatever. However, when it was actually four, the teacher kept on talking and talking! I mean, if the teacher is talking, I guess I'll listen, only if it applies to me or to the general people. A lot of what the teacher is saying, doesn't matter to my character at all! After it was four, the teacher kept on talking, and even told us to take a break then come back again! The teacher is such a hypocrite! The teacher expected us to do another run through of the musical, after he told us we could leave at four. What is this?!
 I really hate this teacher, he's not even suppose to be the director of this musical. The only reason he's in charge of it is because Ms. Alison isn't here. Even Ms. Alison said, when she's gone, Sunny is actually in charge. We listen to Sunny a lot more than the teacher, because we like Sunny. Not just because we like Sunny, it's also because she's not trying to change the whole play!

6/1/11

I think I might have strep throat because I Googled the symptoms, and it matched most of it. It says that your throat will swell up and it'll hurt every time you swallow. My throat feels like it's pregnant and I can't swallow properly. I tried eating dinner today, and I could only eat less than one third of it. It's to a point where it hurts even when I swallow saliva. I've never had strep throat before, and I'm searching how to cure it or make it better. A lot of websites said to go to your doctor and get it checked out. I haven't been to a doctor to look at my health in years. I kind of want to go to a doctor and get my throat checked out, may be they'll give me medications. I heard there's some antibiotics that work really well, but I don't know where to get them. The best I can do right now is drink warm water. I'm drinking warm water with airborne dissolved into the water. It's really painful when I swallow, so I hope this will help at least a little bit.

5/31/11

Oh no, finals week start tomorrow and I have five finals and one test to go! I'm studying all night today, for both English and French. There's a quiz on Romeo and Juliet, act 4 tomorrow, as well as a French final. I'm not as worried about the French final, but still worried. I have to do well on the final for French tomorrow, or my grade will drop. I already have an A- for French, and if I do well on my final, I might be able to keep it like that. If I do bad on the final, I'll get another B! I can't stand it when I have a B in my report card. I like having straight A's, it looks really smooth and pretty on report cards.
I've already decided on my studying schedule for tonight, I just have to follow it. First, I'm going to read act 4 for  Romeo and Juliet. Second, I'm going to studying for the French final until it's time to go to sleep. I think it's better if I study for thirty minutes, then take a five to ten minute break. Breaks between studying time helps the brain to relax and soak in the information. I really hope that finals week will go well, and that I won't fail all of it.

5/30/11

I feel like sleeping for hours and hours until all the pain goes away. My head is hurting, I have a stomach ache, and my throat is throbbing! I tried to make it through the day, but I just couldn't. I went to class for English, World History, and Expository writing. I went to the clinic for French because I was just feeling way too much pain in my head to go to class. I had to go to Expository Writing because there was a test today. I think I did pretty well on the test, especially since it was an open book test. 

I didn't play basketball today because of my headache and stomach ache. Seriously, my head feels like it's about to explode! It's hurting like every second that I'm awake, and it's killing me! My throbbing throat just adds to the pain, and I feel like dying. 

Today during World History, I started messaging my shoulders. I never knew how tense my shoulders were, and how tense my neck was too! I really want to go to a massaging place, like the ones in the spas. There's also blind people who give massages in the hospital. I really want a massage right now, this instance!

5/29/11

I so tired today, I had to wake up at 7:30 in the morning! My parents took me to this place up in the mountains in Taipei, and I had to wake up at 7:30. The ironic thing that my mom said after we got home is that "next time I'm not going to take Jean with us." I thought it was really ironic because she was the one who told me to go in the first place! I didn't want to go that much, and she said, well just go because it's a reunion. I really hate how my mom does that, and it's not even my fault! I'm sorry if you have me as a daughter and I don't want to be stuck in a hotel for hours doing nothing! This is one of the reasons I hate it when people say "you're just like your mom." Correction, I'm nothing like my mom, let me repeat, nothing like my mom! I'm not as self-centered as her, not as big, not as naive, not as mean, not as selfish, and not as annoying as her. The things she do annoys me so much, but I have to live with it every single day. I hate the things she do, how she does it, and how she blames me for things. Seriously, if someone is to say that I'm like my mom, I'm going to flip out!

5/26/11

I'm learning geometry from my dad right now, as like a mini tutor. I didn't really pay attention this whole chapter so I thought I'd ask my dad to teach it to me. There's a chapter test tomorrow so I'm kind of like learning, and also reviewing for the test tomorrow. My head is hurting like crazy, I think it's probably because of all the cramming of geometry in one night. I know it's not the best way to learn, but at least I understand it more now. My dad explains it to me step by step so I know exactly what to do and why. The teacher told us that there's a final as well, and it's from chapter 7 to 12.
 I'm really scared about the final because I think I'm probably going to fail it. This is the first year I've ever had finals, and I'm really scared! I have eight classes in total, and I have six or seven finals. I have a final in English, World History, French, Expository writing, Geometry, and statistics. I'm not sure if there's a final for biology, and I really hope there isn't. I'm hoping that the test he said that's going to be on June 7th to be a chapter test! If it's actually a final, then I'll have seven finals to take! I think that's just way too many, I'm seriously going to die. Even though finals haven't even started, I'm already hating finals.

5/25/11

I just finished reading both the old English and modern version of Romeo and Juliet on Sparknotes. Even though I only read over Act 1, it's such a long play! It took me like an hour and 15 minutes to read the whole thing. Thanks to Sparknotes I understand a lot more about Romeo and Juliet than I did before. I just hope that all this reading will help me on the quiz tomorrow. I don't really like Shakespeare, his writings are too confusing, I like regular English better.
I'm so tired right now, I can barely keep my eyes open. The girl's basketball team had a game today, and I ran so much. I haven't felt this tired from a game in quite some time. We lost really badly, but I really don't want to think about that, because I'll start getting angry again.
Today, I had curry from 7-11 for diner. I haven't had curry in such a long time, I forgot how delicious it is. I also bought a large carton of fruit tea, it's really yummy. Talking about food makes me realize how much I love food.

5/24/11

I feel so free today, there like no homework, except for homework due Thursday or Friday. Today, ever since math, I was studying statistics until lunch ended. However, during the whole math period, it turns out I was studying the wrong chapter. I found out that I studied the wrong chapter during Biology, so I took biology to study. I actually felt confident about the test, until I didn't know one problem. During lunch, I went to ask Sean, but he didn't know, so we went and asked Ben Lee.
It turns out the test wasn't that hard, only one or two questions were. The others were pretty easy if you read the book or studied. I think, hopefully I'm right, I only got one wrong, which was the last question. I really didn't know what the last questions was, so I kind of guessed. After I finished the test, James told me the answer. A lot of people didn't get it right, I think only Justice got it. I don't really like Justice right now, ha ha.

5/23/11

I don't want to go to school tomorrow, I don't want to go to school anymore. Everyday when I go to school, I hate every second I'm there. I use to dislike school, but never hate it as much as I do now. Thinking about school, I start to get really angry and tears build up. I hate this school so much that if I were to choose, I would choose to never have had moved here. I would choose a REAL American school over PAS, any day, in a heartbeat. I've seriously never had this much pressure and stress from school before. I remember the most stressful thing I've ever experienced back in the states was working on my constitution notebook up till four in the morning. Other than the constitution notebook, I wished myself to never having to experience anything like that again. Yet, because of the homework and projects of PAS, I've stayed up till five in the morning. All the homework, all the tests, quizzes, projects, and just everything just makes me scared. I hate PAS, and that's the simplest and nicest way I can say it.

5/22/11

Yay, I finished all the past statistic homework that I didn't do. Statistics take so much time to calculate, it can drive someone crazy! I'm really impressed by how James can do it so easily, and basically every single day. I didn't do the last two assignments though, oops. We're having a chapter test on Tuesday, and it's all about probability. You might think that probability is kind of easy, but not for statistics! It's actually really hard, and I'm scared I'm going to fail the test! I love statistics class, but I'm often confused and really scared that I'll fail the class.
My mom came back from Korea today, and she brought me gifts! I got two poster, three CD's and one pair of shorts. Now that I look at my room, I notice that out of all my posters, only two are NOT from Korea. I have seven posters and five of them are from Korea. Two of them my mom bought me, and the rest were from my friends in America. My Korean friends bought me those poster when they visited Korea.
Because my mom came back today, I took an hour to clean my room so she won't nag at me. I think my room's pretty clean and straight right now, for now. I can never keep my room clean, I have a tendency to throw clothes everywhere or like put papers randomly. I think it all comes down to the fact that I'm too lazy.

5/19/11

I'm typing as fast as I can because my computer is like running out of batteries. Yes, I know, I need to charge it, but you see, my charger is not with me right now. I don't why I'm so stupid, but I forgot my charger in the auditorium. Why? Well, it's because we were lobbying today for PASMUN, and I was the one to type the resolution. When it ended, I forgot to take my charger with me. Now, my computer is almost running out of batteries, and I have no way of charging it. I'm still trying to find another charger so then I'll have a computer to use. I'm more frustrated that because I'm so stupid for not remember, I can't type my speech for PASMUN now! I need to type up my speeches and send it to Ben for him to check over, but I can't really do that anymore! I feel so stupid and forgetful and just frustrated at myself.
I felt really proud of myself today during PASMUN, because I helped typed the resolution. It was so much typing, I never knew how tiring it was to like type for an hour and a half. I felt really proud of myself though, because I contributed a lot. I don't really want to debate tomorrow, but it's MUN, so I kind of have to....

5/18/11

I really hate some of my teachers, they make me so mad that I want to cry and punch them. A lot of times I just want to starting swearing out loud and punch that teacher in the face! We were in class watching a video and we had to answer questions so then we won't fall asleep. While watching the video, I was support my head with my arms, but I had my eyes open. For some reason, the teacher has a major eye problem that he kept telling me "Jean, don't sleep." I WASN'T EVEN SLEEPING, I WAS ONLY SUPPORTING MY HEAD, AND MY EYES WERE WIDE OPEN! HE HAS NO RIGHT TO TELL ME TO WAKE UP BECAUSE I WASN'T SLEEPING! What makes me even more mad is that I wasn't the only one who was sleeping. Seriously, the teacher has a serious eye problem. The closer the students sit, the more he doesn't see them sleeping, yet the farther the students sit, the more he calls on them. Sometimes I wonder if his glasses actually work, he's like eye sight disabled or something.

5/17/11

Sometimes I wonder what it's like to be in someone else's shoes for one day, or sometimes one week. Experience the different kinds of lifestyle that people have, and see the world is viewed differently. Sometimes I also wonder about what it's like to feel what they feel, go through what they do, and live as them for just one day. What is it like to lose a family member, not grandparents or cousins, but parents or siblings. I'm not hoping for anything right here, just pure curiosity. What is it like to have all the attention focused on you, and being treated like a princess by your family. What is it like to be a strong independent person who has strong will power to do things you determine to do. What is it like to be an innocent little kid, forgetting about all the troubles and worries of a high schooler. What is it like to be beautiful in every aspect, and being loved by people that you care about. That's a huge things going on these days, about what is beauty. There's always going to be hatred from people that you might not even know on the Internet, but people deal with it. The degrading comments always involve physical characteristics, and it makes some people strong, yet, it also makes people weaker. Of course, I understand that everyone is beautiful in their own way, but what is beauty? Can it ever be defined, or is it always going to be different from every one's point of view? There's always that "what if," and I really want to know and experiences all the different things in life.

5/16/11

I'm so tired today, and my eyes are all red. I woke at around seven in morning, but I had a really bad headache so I told my mom. I also asked my mom to call the school to tell them I was coming to school at ten. Even when I woke up later, my headache was still there through out the whole day! I couldn't handle the aching of my head so I went to the clinic during the last class.
It was raining like crazy today, it's still raining like crazy right now. I could hear the heavy raindrops bashing against the living room window. It's so loud that I can't concentrate on my homework so I moved to my room to do homework. For basketball, both the girls and boys basketball team went to UMC. It's kind of a waste though, because we spent money on both the entrance fee and the taxi just to play like 40 to 50 minutes of basketball. Yet, I still think it was a bit worth it because we're supposedly having a game this Wednesday. I think the chance of us actually playing is close to little because the rain is said to go on until next week Wednesday.

5/15/11

I'm so mad right now, I feel hate in my heart, like I hate with a passion. I really hate Pacific American School with a passion right now, it's the worst school I've attended so far. Most of the teachers suck, in exception of some, and they barely teach. The ones who actually do teach are actually nice about the homework load they give. The teachers who don't teach and could barely give a care about the students or the school gives homework like there's no tomorrow. They don't ever think about how much the students suffer, it's not like we only have their class for the whole day or year! We need time to ourselves too, can't the school just give us a day or two to rest?! Seriously, we had the spring fair on Sunday, and they expect us to have homework finished and back to school on Monday. Do you have any idea how tired the students are, how we try and get all of our homework finished on time?! I understand that everyone had their times when they were a student, but don't make the mistakes that your teachers made! I hate this school with a deep burning passion down in my guts!

5/12/11

Today went by really fast for some reason, and I did a lot of things. I finished the whole animal farm book today, it wasn't that bad, but not the greatest book. In biology I started working on the notes that I'm going to use tomorrow for the test, and after like half an hour I only finished one third of the notes. I feel like a good kid today, because I started my notes earlier! I rarely do that, I usually do my notes at around ten at night, the night before the test.
We had a rehearsal for musical today, and Ms. Sherry told us that we'll be going back to wordly wise from now on. I hate wordly wise, it's so stupid and not fun at all. All the other classes get to listen to ipods, use computers, talk, but in Mrs. Wallace class she doesn't allow that. I hate going to wordly wise, it's the worst part of Thursdays. She also announced that on this Sunday, the musical people are performing a piece of the musical. It's basically the performance we had for the UNICEF, but the arrangement is the one for the musical not UNICEF.
The cheer leading squad also had a practice today, and it was really hot. We're also performing on Sunday, so we learned a new routine to perform. It's not that bad and weird, but it's just going to be really hot. I hope that we'll do good this Sunday for both the cheer leaders and the musical people.

5/11/11

I'm having the worst day this week yet, and I can't take it! I really have no idea what I did for me to have this kind of day. I woke up late today and got yelled by my mom. I was almost late to school and it was super hot outside. One of my teachers started giving me a small lecture on how I need to make sure homework is turned in on time, and you have to print out all your homework. After school I had to present a project for French class, and I did horrible. Even though she said I did pretty well, I thought I did horrible. Up till there the day actually wasn't the worst, because I tried looking at the positive side of the day. 

Then came basketball practice, which ruined my whole entire day. I don't know why but I couldn't concentrate today, and I was having a bad day. Lee started scolding my team and I about how we need to concentrate and what not. I'm just so mad at myself for making these retarded mistakes that I should be making. It makes me furious how I can't just do one thing good, I hate it. I feel like swearing and punching something, I hate this week!

5/10/11

I actually just woke up from a really long nap, and it's around ten at night. I don't know why but I'm really tired these days, maybe because I've been sleeping a lot less. I felt tired, but yet not tired at all today, it was really weird. I woke up late today because I woke up late and I wanted my parents to call the school first so I would be excused or something. My stupid parents waited till like the last five minutes to tell me that they didn't know the number to school. I hate how they wait till the last minute to tell me that they can't do this or can't do that. They are irresponsible and procrastinate, I guess now I can't blame them for something!
I hate the weather these days it's so hot, like I'm in a sauna when I'm under the sun. Even when I'm not under the sun, I could feel the burning heat waves of the sun rays. I got tan too, tan compared to last week or whatever. I get tan so easily, it's actually kind of scary. I can get tan in the shade after like 30 minutes. I can get a shade darker from being under the sun after ten minutes. Sunscreen barely works on my skin, it only helps like the least amount.

5/9/11

I heard that yesterday there was a post of a cancer patient, it was their last post. Around  three thousand people logged onto blogger and read the post, so that's why blogger wouldn't allow me to post yesterday. I just found that out today, and now I'm kind of curious about the post. Today, Monday, I was in the state where you're really hyper, but actually really tired. You know when you're super tired, but you have that little bit of energy left and you start getting hyper all of a sudden? That's what happened to me, yet, after school I still went to basketball practice. Practice was kind of fun actually, even though it was way too hot. Right when I got to the sixth floor, I could feel the warmth of the sun on my skin. Even when I was in the shade, I could feel the poisonous heat of the sun piercing through my skin. I think during practice I ran too much, because I got two blisters at the soles of the feet. What's worse is that the two blisters popped, causing tremendous pain when walking. I don't know how I'm going to play a game on Wednesday.

5/8/11

Last night, or technically today, I went to sleep at 6:30 in the morning. I couldn't sleep for some reason, so I started playing tetris online. I played tetris from two in the morning to around 5 or 5:30 in the morning. After I told myself not to play anymore tetris, I finished the gift that I gave to my friend today. I didn't do any homework this weekend, and now I'm drinking coffee to try and keep me awake and do homework.
I went to downtown today with a friend, so I didn't celebrate Mother's Day today. Instead, we celebrated it yesterday in Taipei with my aunt and uncle. My brother gave my mom a gift that costs 2000 NT, and I gave her a card. Usually my dad just says, it's the thought that counts, and I don't want any gifts. My mom on the other hand said to me, "look what your brother gave me, where your gift?" On my birthday she doesn't even bother to write a card, and she doesn't even know when Children's Day is! I hate how selfish my mom is, I hate mother's day, I hate writing mother's day cards.

5/6/11

We're filming the goodbye video for Seniors this week, and we finished filming for Esther, Caroline, Teresa, Antony, Allen, and Albert. I think it's really fun, and I hope that it'll turn out well.
There's really little homework this week, there's still homework but I procrastinate. I have two or three days worth of statistics homework, study for geometry test tomorrow, biology test objectives, and script for world history. That's kind of a little/ a lot, depending on how you look at it and your efficiency. For me, it can be both a lot and little at the same time, depending on my mood. Sometimes, studying for geometry can take up 20 minutes to an hour. Statistic homework will always take up hours of my time, so I usually do that homework one at a time. Biology test objectives isn't till next week so I'm procrastinating on it. Script for world history isn't due until Monday so I'm procrastinating on it till the weekend. Basically, I'm a huge procrastinator, and I can't stop the bad habit.

5/4/11

I cried so much today when it was the Cast party and going away party for Ms. Alison. When all of us were watching the goodbye video that Antony made, I started crying and I couldn't stop. I haven't cried this hard in a really long time. I cried so hard that it was hard for me to breathe. I'm going to miss her so much, and I just hope that she won't forget any of us when she's in New York. Even though I only met her this year, she's taught me so much. Ms. Alison wasn't any normal teacher, she was like a friend. In her class, we'd talk about things like how to express ourselves, and gossip. Ha ha. She's an amazing person, she's also kind of like an inspiration to me. Ms. Alison knows how to be fun and crazy, but she also knows when to be serious and strict about things. She's an inspiration for me towards the performing arts, especially in theater. I don't see her dance and sing often, but when I do, she's so focused and passionate about it. I love music as well, and I just hope that I'll be like her one day.

5/3/11

I'm so mad right now, I can barely express it in words. I'm furious, I'm raging mad, I want to punch something so hard that my hand breaks. I really don't get people, why don't they listen, or just be reasonable? Especially boys, I really don't get why they think what they do is cool. Sometimes they just say that they don't feel like doing that thing, or they don't want to, and I just don't get it. What they 'don't feel like doing' can sometimes end up wasting everyone else's time.
I've been having a really bad week, even though it's only Tuesday, I'm hoping that the week will get better. Somehow, everyday, there's at least one thing I get really upset about it. When I tell it to my friends or whatever, it doesn't seem that big of a deal. When I think it in my head and connect it with all my other thoughts, I feel worthless. I have to put on a fake smile everyday just so I seem normal. When I say I put on a fake smile, that's saying something. I usually smile because I feel like it, and I'm always smiling, but when I don't feel happy, I do kind of show it. Now I have to fake my day through, and it just makes me feel worse.

5/2/11

I'm working on my statistics take home test right now, and I'm not getting it. I got the easy parts, but like all the other questions, I'm flipping through all the pages of the book to find the answer. Of course, the answers aren't going to in the book, but there's formulas to help me solve the problems. Once again, I'm getting agitated over school work, and this time, it's pertaining to math again. Seriously, I hate math so much that if I could choose, I'd rather choose a job that doesn't include mathematics. I can calculate like algebra and everything, but sometimes I just feel like math is the most annoying subject there is! Correction, one of the most annoying basic subjects in school. Other subjects such as Art History wouldn't count as a basic subject and I heard that class is really hard. I just hate how this school makes the students suffer with all that homework. I don't think a lot of students actually learn from the homework, they just learn how to turn stuff in on time. A lot of times, students don't even turn in homework on time! I don't like how there's so much homework, and a lot of the teachers aren't as qualified as some other teachers.

5/1/11

Today's my friend's birthday and we were suppose to go out and celebrate, but we couldn't. My friend's parents didn't allow going outside to play because SAT Math is next week. My friend's studying like every single day for it. Taking classes after school everyday for an hour, not being able to go out with friends on weekends, and taking practice tests almost every other day. I would hate to have to live like that, even just for a couple of weeks. I really don't want my sophomore year to come, I'm afraid of all that school pressure and the grades. On the contrary, I want freshmen year to end, because it's been a painful year. Right now I really feel that I hate high school, it's the worst! I miss middle school so much, I miss how we could roam freely. I miss how grades were important but never as important as high school. I miss how I only had like at most 4 hours of homework, depending on how long the assignment was. I just miss how free, happy, stress-free I was. Now I'm buried deep in homework, constantly worrying about my grades and feeling like the world's most stupid person.

4/28/11

I am so tired today, I didn't do any homework and fell asleep on my bed. I was woken up by a phone call, and I had to like talk on the phone for 10 minutes until I felt I wasn't going to sleep right after I hang up. I never knew how tiring it would be do perform a musical! I mean, I know it's tiring, but the rehearsing is crazy! We did two rehearsal, the first one was with corrections and everything to make it a better performance. The second one was a non-stop, full dressed rehearsal so it went a lot faster than the first one. I'm super tired and sore, from dancing and singing, and changing costume almost every 5 minutes.
It was a full dress rehearsal, meaning costumes, hair, and makeup. The makeup was really weird, because all of our eyebrows were outlined so we look like we have bushy eyebrows. Our lips were also bright red, which made us look kind of really creepy. I don't look like myself at all, and it scares me. What worse is that next Tuesday, it's a full dress rehearsal at school! Costume, makeup, hair, everything at school, where people can walk in a watch. I don't want people to see how freaky I look. But, I can't do anything about it. I just hope that they won't make fun of me too much.

4/27/11

Today I'm so crazy, and full of really weird ideas as well as saying weird things. I'm really upset that the boys basketball team lost again to the same team for the third time. I can't really control their winning and losing, but I just feel really upset. Whenever our team is playing against them, we're never in good condition. I hate the other team too, for being so cocky and annoying. They have no manners and it makes me so mad that I want to scream at them. When we play against other teams or when they play with us in our home court, we offer to help. We at least ask if they need help with putting chairs away. The team the boys played against today didn't ask that at all! They didn't even have the manner to go into the bathroom or somewhere else than change on the court in front of everyone. I really hate people with bad manners, it makes me think how uneducated they are.
After the game was really fun though, because I went out for dinner. I can't believe how silly and weird I am, it's to a point that even I'm speechless sometimes. It was really fun though, and I feel like I'm being taken care of. I love having friends that are older, they help me a lot with academics and emotional problems.

4/26/11

There's so much homework this week, I'm so mad at all the teachers! I don't get why they have to give so much homework during this time! I have homework from all classes, except for Musical Production. I finished English and History homework, but there's still biology notes, questions and math homework. The most scariest homework for me right now is math homework because there's so much of it! I have six lessons of math homework to catch up on, and I hate geometry. I hate geometry so that's why I dread having to do the homework for it. The other math homework is Statistics, a math class that I don't completely hate. I don't hate statistics class because it's kind of fun, except the homework. He gives kind of a lot of homework because he gives like a normal amount of questions, but the questions all have sub-questions. In other words, one questions he gives is actually like five questions. I'm not the smartest person in statistics, so when I'm doing his homework, I sometimes get really frustrated that I can't get it! I hate PAS because of the homework that the teachers give us, it's way too much for a freshmen.

4/25/11

I feel so weird going to school today, because I feel really awkward with my new haircut. I had so many people going up to me and point to me saying "you got a haircut!" I don't know what to say so I just smile and nod back. The funnies thing was during lunch,Esther turned towards me and said "from this angle you look like you have short hair." After she said that I turned 360 degrees and Caroline and I both said "it's because I do have short hair."
After basketball practice I wasn't the best mood, and I don't even know why. But, I went out to dinner with some friends, and I was laughing like crazy. I love hanging out with them because they always know how to make me smile. For some reason, I feel like I've learned a lot today. Not learning a lot as in life experiences, but learned a lot of secrets. I feel trusted and it makes me feel important and happy.

4/24/11

I got a haircut on Saturday, and I'm not use to it at all! I wanted a big change, so I cut my hair really short. It's only a little bit longer than shoulder length, and it makes me look like a little girl. My hairdresser says I look more like a little kid, more fit for my age. I feel really weird and a bit insecure without my long hair now, I haven't had short hair in a really long time. Last time I had short hair was probably in first or second grade.  After my haircut, my mom took me shopping around Taipei. It was actually a lot of fun, because I bought so much clothes! They were all pretty cheap too, because that's the only reason my mom let me buy them.
Today, I've been working on my homework for the whole day. Ever since I woke up and finished my lunch, I started working on homework. It's 10:16 PM, and I haven't started on math homework yet! I have so much math homework this week, and I have like no time to finish it. I hate math so much, I hate it with a passion.

4/21/11

As I expected, I still had a really bad morning. It's all because of the math test we got back, I got a really bad score. I don't understand why I always get these bad grades! I study, I do my homework, but I just don't pay as much attention during class. The only reason I do that is because the teacher said that she doesn't grade on participation. It makes me really mad that teachers do that, and they have favorites, even if they don't show it. During biology, the teacher was going over the test objectives and it's funny how he doesn't know the answers on the top of his hands. Isn't he suppose to be the biology teacher, and yet he looks up answers in the book. If he doesn't even though the answers to the questions he gives us, what give him the right to give up those tests?! Another thing is that he goes on facebook during class time.
Sometimes I feel like it's not fair for some people in the cheer leading squad. Today, we took pictures for the yearbook, and almost like one third almost half the time was dedicated towards guys who singly lift the flyer's up. Bases and protectors got some pictures, but definitely not as much as the flyer's. I understand that flyer's are important since they are flyer's. The thing that I don't understand is, flyer's already get most of the attention during performances, should the bases get some attention as well? If you think about it, without the protectors or bases, flyer's are nothing. Bases, protectors, and flyer's make up a whole group, without one, the others can't go on. I'm just saying that people need to give their attention to everyone, not just the people who are always in the spotlight.

4/20/11

I can't believe how useless I am, I know I shouldn't be saying that but that's how I feel right now. I feel like I can't do anything, anything I do is bad and never good enough. I know that whatever I think I'm good at, there will always be people who can do it better. I know I have to accept the fact that where ever I go, there's people better than me. I just can't accept the fact that I can't do anything well, especially the things I like. I can't do that, the least I can do is be smart and work hard in school. Still, I can't do that either. I didn't get the grade that I want, so I'm in a bad mood. My friend told me that I shouldn't be sad over my grades, it's better than a lot of other people, but I just can't help it. I'm not them, I have my own standards, and they be higher or lower than others. It doesn't matter, because even if my parents to nag at me, I'll still feel the guilt. I feel stupid, slow, worthless, and useless. I can't do anything good, and even if I can, it's still not good enough. I just don't know what I am actually good at to redeem myself.

4/19/11

The musical production did our first run through today, it took like almost two hours! It was really fun though, and it went pretty well. Even though I'm the ensemble, I still feel a bit important. The musical doesn't have that many people, so each part is important, no matter how small. One important thing was that I always though the Hot Box Girl's dance was really embarrassing because we had to act really giggly. For some reason, I managed to be really giggly, and I didn't feel embarrassed at all. I use to be afraid because it was unnatural, but it's not anymore. It's a part of the performance, so I just took time and enjoyed it. I love being able to enjoy my performance so I don't get nervous and mess up. I think that's the joy of performing. For the first time, I feel the true happiness and excitement of performing. I can't be too sure though, because this was only a run through. I hope that even in front of an audience I'll still feel the same and be able to enjoy this performance.

4/18/11

I'm so mad at cheer leading, I've had enough of it, I really want to quit! Usually, cheer practice is from club time til 4:30 in the afternoon. But, apparently it's changed to club time til 5PM and on Tuesdays it's from 3:30 to 5:30 PM. I really can't stand it, I have no time to myself! I have no time to do what I want, or even have any free time to hang with my friends. I really hate it because we work hard, but there are some people who don't. Without Jingmin and I, who were complaining right after we heard the news, the cheer squad would probably end. I'm the base for Amanda, and Jingmin is the protector for Misty, and sometimes even base. Without us two, two of the groups wouldn't be able to perform, leaving only one group left. How is a cheer leading squad suppose perform with only one group of four or five people? It's impossible!
Today was Jack's birthday and during practice, the coach gathered us for a little talk from the captains, co-captains and the coaches. Right when Lee finished his speech, almost the whole boys basketball team surrounded Jack and wiped him with shaving cream. The cake that Enya and Rachel bought was delicious! I hope that Jack had an amazing birthday.

4/17/11

I am so hyper right now, because I just watched the "Roller Buffalo" video. The song singing "you can't roller skate in the buffalo herd" is stuck in my head! It's way too funny because of an inside joke from TAIMUN. Gosh, how I miss that amazing yet crazy night at TAIMUN. When we got back, I went to eat dinner with Maxine, Vincent, and Sean. They all ate, except for me because I wasn't hungry.
On Saturday, it was my dad's birthday so last night we went to a Japanese restaurant.
Today, my mom took our family to this moving party or whatever you call it. My mom's friend's sister is moving to a new house and they're celebrating for it. The house was amazing big and clean and full of space, the total opposite of our house. After we had that celebration, my parents took my brother back to his dorm.
Right now I'm watching the video that Austin filmed during the night at TAIMUN, and I can't stop laughing. I really like MUN, especially when we're at the hotel.

4/14/11

Finally there's Internet in the hotel, even though there's only two bars. I was afraid that I couldn't get Internet and I wouldn't be able to post a blog on blogger causing my blog points!
Today (technically yesterday), I woke up at 5:41 in the morning because we have to meet at school at 6:30. I slept all the way through the bus ride, and when we got to the hotel, opening ceremony started right away. After opening ceremony, we took a crazy bus ride up to AST. The bus ride made me really dizzy and gave me a headache. I was really nervous to go up to the podium for the opening speech. I was shaking and I made stuttering mistakes, I kind of laughed at myself. When lobbying came, it was at first really boring, but then it became really fun. I made new friends and it was really fun, even though I got a bit scared at first. I'm hoping that tomorrow I won't get attacked too much and start crying on stage!

4/13/11

I went to sleep at around almost two in the morning today, and I'm sick too. I'm tired and at the same time, I got sick, being tired and sick. Personally, being tired and sick is probably one of the worst combinations. I haven't been feeling this sick for a really long time. The funny thing is that during basketball practice, I sat out because I didn't feel well and I asked Mr. Lee a question. He answered the questions and started talking more about it and become more and more detailed. I didn't say it out loud, but after he said all that, I forgot everything. I couldn't follow along because I can't think straight and it just went in and out the other ear.
Tomorrow is TAIMUN, and I'm so excited and nervous at the same time! It's my first conference, and everyone has to speak, which I kind of don't want to do because I have stage fright. I'm feeling OK about my opening speech because Mr. Wahlgren fixed parts of it, but I'm afraid I'll be dissed if I go up and debate about my issue. Seriously, if a lot of people start asking me questions, I think I'm going to cry.... I'm excited though, because there's a diner and dance that night! My friends and I are only going to half the dance, then we're going to the night market. The night market in Taichung is really famous so I'm going there and may be getting some gift for people.

4/12/11

I'm having a really bad day today and I hate it. At first it was going OK, but ever since after lunch things started to go bad. First during Statistics class we had to answer the bonus questions on our previous test. While trying to find out the answer to the second question, I got confused. I kind of got it after he worked it out for us, but I still kind of don't get it if I were to do it on my own. During Musical,  things didn't go the way I wanted to, but I'm not going to say what. It really gets on my nerves because things like this always happens to me! After school, I hung out with my friends which got me in a better mood. Yet, I still feel down because I feel like I annoy some people. Especially today, I feel like that person is often a little frustrated at me. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm sorry to all those people who I've annoyed or hurt or did something that I shouldn't of done.

4/11/11

Today is the first day back from spring break and I am not ready for school at all. I'm really tired, and I feel like procrastinating and I just want to sleep! Today I'm like totally out of it, I opened a locker and accidentally hit myself on the head. I also kept saying the wrong words, making me sound like I'm talking gibberish. I guess it's not the worst Monday, but definitely not the best. This week I only have three days of school because on Thursday, it's TAIMUN so I won't be at school on both Thursday and Friday.
My spring break was pretty good, it was relaxing and free. At the same time, I did do something during my spring break so I don't seem like a complete couch potato. On Wednesday I went to Leofoo Village with my friends. On Friday I went to a buffet that I've never been to with Wanyi. On Saturday I went to UMC with some basketball people and exercised! On Sunday, I went to my first wedding, and it was really fun! A lot of people told me it's going to be boring, but it turned out to be the exact opposite. It was my cousin's wedding and another one of my cousin is getting married next month! I'm excited for the wedding!

3/31/11

I'm am so excited for tomorrow, because it's prom! I can't wait because this is my first year going to prom and I'm getting all dressed up for it. Another reason is because the seniors are doing a tango dance! All of them worked so hard on the dance, and I can't wait to see it! Especially Esther, Caroline, Godwin, Jack, and Rachel. I think Godwin is really lucky because  Rachel is so adorable and she dance really well. Today I stayed after school til Ariadne 8 at night watching them practice for the tango. It was so amazing, I hope that when I'm a senior, my grade gets to perform a dance too. I also saw the shoes they're wearing to prom, because they have to practice tango in them to get use to it. Pamela's heels were so wicked, as well as Rachel's and Enya's. They were really cute and just overall amazing. I told them that when I'm a senior they have to help me pick out my heels.
Today is the start of spring break, I'm super excited! Finally, I can sleep at whenever I want and til whenever I want. Except tomorrow, because I have musical rehearsals at 8am to 2pm which is a pain! Just when I thought I could finally have some decent sleep, I have to wake up early to go practice something. After rehearsals are all preparation for prom, then PROM! I'm excited for tomorrow!

3/30/11

I really hate some teachers in this school, they make me so mad that I just want to yell at them. I thought teachers were suppose to be fair, and yet, they have favorite and treat everyone differently! I do all my homework, I don't fall asleep in the class, I don't comment during inappropriate times, and still the teacher treats me like nothing! I actually thought the teacher was a good teacher, even though the teaching's bad, but still a nice person. Now it's different, I really hate that teacher right now. It seems like every time there's a group project, I always get the worst groups, or at least people that I don't really prefer. I never did anything to the teachers, yet, I have the worst luck. I'm so mad I want to use swear words, but no, it's "inappropriate."
One thing that makes up for this bad day is basketball practice. Today was an easy practice because we focused mainly on the new comers. There's Janet and Stephanie, and Janet learns really quick. It's also been decided that the game against IBSH tomorrow is officially canceled. Pamela didn't want the juniors to play so they could focus on their academics, so that only leaves the girl's basketball team with 6 players. The two juniors that are gone are the two main point guards. Because of that, Mr. Lee had us train for controlling the ball, and shooting under the basket. I really need to step up my skills in dribbling, or I'll never be good enough.

3/29/11

I'm so tired today, and I've decided that I am going to sleep early today! There's the English mid-term tomorrow so I'm going to study then sleep. I finished all my homework due on Wednesday on Monday. I finished all the Friday homework on Tuesday, and Thursday I'm not sure about yet. I have no homework at all today, except to study. The perfect thing is that there's no school on Friday, so I don't have to worry about Friday's homework!
During math class, I wanted to sleep during the whole class but I had to stay awake and finish math homework. I hate biology class, the teacher gets more and more annoying after each class. He tells students don't talk, and we can't even whisper about the class PowerPoint. What even worse is that there's a quiz on Thursday, and he only taught the PowerPoint today! We had study hall during statistics class, and I took that time to finish my statistics homework. I didn't want to drag on the task of doing the homework during break, so I finished it in class. For musical, Amanda and I weren't called until 2:40 PM, so we stayed in Mr. Joubert's classroom. His students were making food, and we went there to help them eat the food they made. All of the food were delicious, even though we only ate like two dishes.
After school I wanted to bake brownies, but I couldn't use the oven without Mrs. Wallace. I gave up on asking for the oven, so I didn't make any brownies. Speaking of which, I really want brownies right now....

3/28/11

I'm actually a bit scared about my history test, I'm not sure if I got an A or not. I studied the materials, but I think he won't be satisfied with my answers. I tried my best though, and hopefully that will be good enough.  In expository writing we had a pop mid-term, it was out of no where! He just said "OK, we're going to have a mid-term now." But, it wasn't that bad because it was open book, which helped.
Today, I finally remembered to buy my prom ticket with Amanda. I have a date so it's cheaper than going alone, I only have to pay 1200NT instead of 1500NT. We also wrote down our names for where we're sitting during prom. We have five people at our table so far, and we still need three more people to fill the table.
It was windy today, but not as windy as last week. I'm so happy that I didn't get hurt today, I was safe and didn't get hurt at all! I fell once on my knees but that nothing compared to what happened last week. I was pretty lucky during practice today, I made in three shots while practicing. I still need to improve my accuracy when shooting though. I found that my endurance and strength has gone down, probably because I was hurt for most of last week. I just hope that this Thursday our whole team will do good!

3/27/11

All the people from SPIMUN are back, and they brought souvenirs! I get to see all of them tomorrow at school, I'm super excited! It's midterm week next week and I have a history test tomorrow.
On Saturday, I woke up around ten, and after my mom and I went shopping downtown, we drove to Taipei. When we got to Taipei, she took me shopping again. I bought a lot of things, but not so much that I can't fit all of them in one medium sized bag. My family and I slept over at my cousin's house. On Sunday morning, I was suppose to visit my grandfather's grave but I couldn't wake up so they went without me. They tried to wake me up at six in the morning, and I never wake up that early, so they had to go without me. After I woke up, my parents got back around noon, and we went to lunch. I ate a lot during lunch, so I didn't have any dinner today.
Surprisingly, usually when I go to Taipei I do all my homework after I get back. But, this time I took my Holt Reader with me to Taipei and finished all the work I needed to do. Still, there's a lot of homework that I still have to finish.

3/24/11

I know it's far away, but I was thinking a lot about my future, about college. Every time I talk or think about college, I get really scared. Sometimes I even cry because I'm really scared of what would happen. What if I'm one of those people who work really hard, but I don't have the luck to turn out as good as others? What if I'm one of those people who try and work really hard, but still not enough? I'm really scared that my future won't turn out the way I want it to. I put a lot of thought into this, and I've concluded that I really don't know anything about my future. Right now, all I know is I love music with a burning passion, and I hate learning about things I have no interest in. I have no idea how that will help me to think more about my future, but that is what I know.
Today was also a really hilarious day, especially after school. We were laughing our butts off because of Tiffany Chen. She did this really cool face that made us all laugh. When Jack said "sh!" She said in her cool voice really intensely, "PIGS CAN FLY!" IT WAS HILARIOUS! Caroline even recorded it and she asked
Tiffany if she could post it onto facebook. That was my most intense workout of the day, and my favorite kind of workout.

3/23/11

I'm super hyper today, I don't know why but I'm dancing at random times.  For the whole day, I didn't fall asleep in any of my classes, except history where I took a ten minute nap. In french we had a chapter test, which wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. After school I had to go the the office because I was speaking Chinese. Amanda was also called as well, so both of us had to clean up trash from the top of the lockers. After I cleaned the trash, Carol or jiaoguan grabbed me and made us help her with some moving. Because of the trash and suddenly being called, I went up the practice late.
There was a game for the boys today, they were against this school that if you translate it literally it's called World High School. I thought we would win easily, but we did not. I'm really sad and mad about it because one of the main reason we lost is because no one boxed out! We really shouldn't of lost that game, I really want the boys to play them again! But, I asked Mr. Rick and he said they don't have time. They're playing Guangfu next thursday, and we're playing some other school that day as well. I think that if Sean and Che-hung were here, we wouldn't of lost the game.

3/22/11

i went to sleep at around one thirty in the morning today, but my computer was on til around three. I was supposedly waiting to talk to my friend in Russia, but I fell asleep. People who were online at around 3 were all really puzzled by why I was still online at that time. In the morning we took a math test, which was like any other test. I really don't care about my math grade, as long as I don't do exceptionally bad, I'm fine. Right after math, we had to take a biology test. Mr. Lindeman isn't here this whole week, so we took the test in Wahlgren's class. The test wasn't as bad as I thought, I finish the whole test except for the very last question. It was some questions about fragments and whatnot.
At lunch I was laughing seventy-five percent of the time. Amanda was talking about how the chemistry teacher is really easy to mess with, and it made me speechless. Right when I was speechless and it was quiet, Jingmin dropped her cantaloupe! It was the most perfect moment, and all five of us started cracking up like crazy.
Since the SPIMUN people are gone, statistics class seems so empty. During statistics class, my eyes were hurting and felt super dry. We're learning about probability, and until today, I never knew how complicated probability can be.
After school, me and some other people went down to first floor. The seniors and their dates were practicing for their tango dance. I was learning along with them because I thought it'd be fun to learn the dance. It was super funny, because Godwin would go up to Esther and start jumping saying "Esther Lu, Esther Lu, Esther Lu." It was a really fun day!

3/21/11

Today was such an awful day, it wasn't awful as in bad mood, but awful as in unlucky. During world history class, Brandon started reading out a status of facebook, comment by comment in front of the whole class. During basketball practice, Caroline was making fun of a status that I put up. It wasn't that bad, it's just a bit annoying and kind of made me speechless. During practice I also got hurt three times, the last one was so bad that I had to sit out for the rest of the practice. First was when I was stealing the ball from Esther and I fell down and scraped my knee. Second time was when I accidentally slipped when stepping on Jingmin's feet and I got lines and lines of scratches on my shin. Third time was when we were playing a small game, and my muscles got all tensed up, eventually pulling a muscle. When I sat down I was crying because it was hurting so badly. When practice was over, I went to put on my jeans, but when I was putting on my pants, my scars were stinging!
The weather today was disgusting because it was really humid. I hate humid weather, so that's why I hate Taiwan summers. The school was OK, because there was air conditioning in all the classrooms. The hall way was gross, it was hot and humid. During practice I felt like I was taking a shower in sweat. Sounds gross, which it was, but I still had to go to practice! I'm hoping that tomorrow's weather won't be as humid and disgusting.

3/20/11

I got my prom dress on Saturday, and I love the dress! I actually liked another dress better but it was too expensive and not that worth the money since this isn't my graduation prom or something. The dress is silver and really shiny, it matches my date's tie and my shoes. I also bought a necklace and earrings while I was buying the dress. The dress and jewelry together is about one thousand NT, so it wasn't that expensive. I'm excited for prom, but there's only two weeks left so I have to start not eating so much. Ha ha.
On Saturday night, I stayed up till three in the morning because I wanted to stay up late so I could talk to my friends. Some of my friends are in Russia right now for SPIMUN, and I miss them. I stayed up late just to talk to them. :]
On Friday, the people who's going to St. Petersburg left at three p.m. Friday was also the day for the poetry contest, it was kind of fun. I like the poetry contest because it made all the classes a lot shorter, and some poems were really funny and meaningful. There were some poems that I really didn't like because it just made no sense to me, and I just didn't like it. At the end of the poetry contest, the musical production people had to sing "Sit Down You're Rocking The Boat." It was out of random, so when I heard that Ms. Alison said we're singing it, I was shocked. It was fun, even though everyone was shocked and singing randomly.
On Sunday, my family and I went up to the mountains to pay a visit to our grandparents. After, we went to this Hongkong buffet, the food was pretty good. It was a really big meal, after eating that, I didn't eat for the rest of the day. After the buffet, I went shopping with my parents and bought clothes and stationary.

3/17/11

This is one of the worst days I've had in a long time. Ever since after lunch I've been feeling down, and there's two reasons. One, it's because of the stupid chair in PASMUN. He thinks he's all that, and that he can control all the delegates just because for the first time in his pathetic life that he's in charge. THAT'S EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE OF REALITY, because he has no control over a lot of his delegates. Not because that the delegates are being disrespectful, but that the chair is worthy of our respect. It really makes me mad that he puts PASMUN in front of TAIMUN. One thing for sure, he needs to get his priorities straight!
Second thing is that my music abilities have gotten worse. For the past two years I've been in the school choir, so everyday I was listened and trained to listen and sing harmonies. Since I've moved back to Taiwan, I don't get a lot of chances to exercise my singing or hearing, so it got a lot worse. I'm pitchy and sometimes off pitch really easily. That doesn't usually happen to me, and I'm really upset over it. Music means a lot to me, you can really say it's my life. I live by music, and it's basically just as important and having family or friends. I love music, I want to major in music, but by thinking about how I suck at it, makes me want to cry. I feel like the things I love are slowly slipping away from me.

3/16/11

I'm so tired today, I almost fell asleep in every single class. It was harder to fall asleep in English and History, because we were actually doing things in class. In history we finished watching "Saving Private Ryan," which is a pretty good movie. During French class we did some exercise, but french is really easy for me because I learned french in seventh and eighth grade. When we were taking our listening test, I was closing my eyes when she was repeating all the information. In expository writing, I was sleeping through out the reading and also a bit when we were suppose to evaluate other peoples papers. I was really surprised because I was tired enough to fall asleep within 5 minutes, and I dreamt of something!
Basketball practice today was OK, but a bit tiring. We were practicing on our defense skills and my thighs were killing me! For some reason, I pulled a muscle on the arc of my feet. It hurt so badly that I couldn't walk or run properly for the rest of the practice. Changing my practice to regular clothes and walking home was difficult.
Today was high school stereotype day for spirit week. I dressed up as a nerd, as well and Jingmin, candy, and Amanda. I wore a plaid skirt with a blouse, suspenders, and knee-high socks, then I also braided my hair. It was really fun, and everyone kept saying I look really nerdy. I love spirit week!

3/15/11

WE WON OUR FIRST BASKETBALL TODAY, I'M SO EXCITED AND HAPPY! Right when the game ended I wanted to jump for joy, but I had to have sportsmanship. Even though I seemed calm and happy, I was almost crying tears of joy. I'm so happy, we finally won our first game, and I helped! I made in two shots which is four points! The score was 23 to 19, and we were 23! This isn't it though, the boys basketball team won as well! They won by three points with the score of 36 to 33. Last time they lost by three points, and this time they won by three points! The funniest thing was that when I made in my first shot, Esther jumped for joy and yelled "oh yeah!"
Today was also animal day for spirit week, and only a couple people dressed up for it. The seniors were the 101 Dalmatians, and the freshmen only had around seven people? Not sure, but very little. I was a lion, I wore this lion hat that I got for Christmas.
We got our tests back in biology, and I a really bad score! It's OK though, I'm use to the bad score so I'm not sad or anything. In statistics, we got our tests back too. I got 60 out of 80, but he lowered the points and made it out of 20 points. I got 15 out of 20 points, which seems a lot better than 60 out of 80.
Today was an amazing day! School was OK, not boring, but not super fun. I like today though, especially after school! On March 15th, 2011, I, Jean Hsu, won my first basketball game. GO TYPHOONS!

3/14/11

Today's basketball practice was so hot, I hate it! I hate hot weather, because if you exercise in that weather, you sweat. I hate sweating, because when you sweat, your body gets all sticky and gross. I was sweating like a pig today during practice, and I wanted a big fan or air conditioning. There's a game tomorrow, and I really hope we win. We've been working really hard, and the season is coming to an end, so I hope we'll win tomorrow!
For some reason, I felt that history class went by really fast, and french class really slow. In history class, we watched "Saving Private Ryan." So far it's a really good movie, and I actually like it, even though the movie's pretty graphic at some parts. In french class, half an hour seemed like an hour.
I'm so busy today, all because of...BIOLOGY HOMEWORK! I have biology homework to finish, and statistics to finish, and also, geometry homework to finish. I have to finish all that homework and manage to sleep before midnight. Is that even possible?
Today's Monday, and it's the first day of spirit week and we dressed in our grade color today. The freshmen were blue, sophomores were pink, juniors were purple, and seniors were red. I'm super excited for tomorrow because it's animal day and I'm going to be a lion! I finally get to wear my lion hat, and because of the basketball game tomorrow, I get to wear a tie over my lion clothes.

3/13/11

This weekend I stayed at home all day, I didn't leave the house at all. On both Saturday and Sunday, I woke up around noon, and stayed at home all day. On Saturday I didn't do any homework, but I tried. I mostly watched movies and TV show series, which isn't that good for my brain. I wasted a lot of time on Saturday, but it's OK, because I was watching Glee all day! Glee is an amazing show, I love all their voices. I hate Terry though, she's so mean and fake and just plain evil minded.
On Sunday, I did almost half of my homework. I finished all the homework that due tomorrow on Monday, and one third of what due on Tuesday. For two straight hours I was working on biology. Yet, only have of it is done. I still have other half of biology, statistics homework, and half of geometry homework to finish. I hate how much homework I have, and it's mostly because of biology. Without all that homework from biology, I think this year would have been a lot less stressful. It's crazy how I'm only a ninth grader, and I'm already under all this stress from homework.

3/10/11

Today's a PD day but I still had to come to school at 9:30 in the morning. Although it's later than the usual time for school, it's still early for a day off. I had to get to school by that time for musical rehearsals. I was a bit late, but the hot box girls weren't needed until 9:45. From 9:45 to around 10:40, we learned three counts of eight for the introduction of the play. It was fun, because I love dancing, and it was a fun dance! After, Caroline, Amanda, and I went out to buy drinks. When we came back, we went up to the school and tired on our Cuban dance costumes. The dresses were really cute, but I wasn't sure what shoes I should wear. The only heels I have that's good for the show is the ones I practice in. Dancing in high heels is a pain, I now know the happiness of wearing sneakers. We also went out for lunch until one, then from one to three, the Cuban dance people were practicing. Ms. Alison taught us the last two counts of eight for the dance, and it was really confusing. There are a lot of fancy arm movements, making everything harder. Even by practicing, my head was getting all dizzy.
At 5 pm, I had a dentists appointment. I got my braces tightened, and they switched the small rubber band to thicker ones. Right now, I could feel the rubber band pulling on my braces. It doesn't hurt, but it's a bit sore.

3/9/11

Today was a pretty good day, except the fact that I was really tired throughout the day. I could barely keep my eyes open during history class! I had to squint my eyes every ten seconds to keep my eyes open. Today during basketball practice, we had a light practice. The drills we did was mostly shooting the ball, and I found out that the way I shoot the ball is wrong. I have to completely shoot the ball and not just push the ball out, that way I can find my shooting point. During the last ten minutes we had a small game, whoever gets more points with six shots wins. The ending score was four against two, and my team won! The losing team had to run four suicides, and I was the one that kept track of the time. I keep practicing my shooting skills, and in the end, my arms were super tired. One good news is that I finally uploaded all the videos of the basketball game from yesterday. One bad thing is that I found out tomorrow I have to go to school at 9:30 in the morning for musical rehearsals, even though it's a PD day. Overall, I thought today was a good day! :]

3/8/11

I can't believe we lost our basketball game, again! I really thought we'd win today, because we spent so much time preparing for it. I thought everyone did really well today, except some parts. We still have to work on our lay ups, because a lot of time, people were afraid to just do a lay up. I thought I did OK, a bit bad.  I missed 3 shots, and I'm agitated by how I didn't make those shots in. We lost by nine points, which isn't the worst.
Today in musical, we had to practice wearing our heels and dance. High heels are a pain in the butt, especially when dancing in them! It was fun though, and scary at the same time. At times I almost slipped, but I like how I got taller.
I'm super hyper today, until after the basketball game. Before the game, I was really hyper and happy. Ever since last night, I was chatting with a friend, I've been hyper all the way till the game. Sometimes I do believe that wishes do come true, as long as you believe hard enough!

3/7/11

There's a basketball game tomorrow and I'm really scared! Scared and nervous at the same time because we learned a new strategy today. I get the strategy, it's just that I'm afraid I won't be able to do it well. Something really funny happened at the end of practice today. We were playing four on four, Esther, Teresa, Christine Hsu, and I were on one team and Ariel, Wanyi, Jingmin, and Lee was on the other team. We were playing to see who would win within two or three shots. We made the first shot, then Lee made the second. Everyone was super intense and scared because Lee said the losing team had to run 3 suicides. When Esther made in the third shot, I ran and jumped for joy! It's was really funny because we acted as if we won the championships. I hope that tomorrow, we'll have the same amount of energy and motivation to win the game! Let's go Typhoons! The boys are playing a game tomorrow as well.

3/6/11

NO!!!!!!!! I failed the biology test, and I'm not just saying that, I really do think I failed it. I didn't finish almost ten questions, and I most likely got a lot of multiple choices wrong. I'll be happy if I got at least fifty points on the test. I'm really mad about this, and from this point on, I've really given up on biology. I talked to my dad about it, and seriously, I hate biology because of him. Ever time I think of biology, I just want to break down and kill something. The statistics wasn't that bad though, there was only 8 questions. The first three questions were really troublesome because it was graphing questions. There was three graphing questions, and five multiple choices. I'm a bit scared, because if I got one questions wrong, my grades will drop. I think I did OK though, I'm hoping for the best.
After school, I ran to my lockers and put down my backpack, then ran home as fast as I could. I went back to go get my binder that's due for biology today, and ran back to school. After I turned in my binder, I got ready for basketball practice, which I was late for. Today's basketball practice was basically watching our game from last week. I like today from after lunch, before lunch it was all a bad day. I hate today, but yet, it was OK. I've given up on biology, I really don't care for it at all now.
On Saturday, I went to downtown with Jingmin, Candy, Amanda, Godwin, Gary, and Jimmy. It was really fun! We watched "I Am Number 4," which was an amazing movie. I loved it, I hope there's a sequel!
On Sunday, I went to my friends house to do homework. Instead, we watched a movie, chatting, and I did some of my homework. Some as in my statistics homework and nothing else. It was fun though, we watched "Bedtime Stories." The girl who's the hotel owner's daughter is the girl that's "number six" in the movie "I Am Number 4." I had a pretty fun weekend, hopefully next week will be good!

3/3/11

I can't believe this week, because there's so many tests! There's a biology and statistics test tomorrow, and I'm dying of stress right now. I'm more worried about biology rather than statistics. I first studied biology and made test notes, finished objectives, and then studied the Power Points. All of the studying of biology took me around two hours. I think what the biology teacher is making us do is wasting paper. The biology teacher is killing our planet, killing our trees!
I'm also studying for statistics, which I'm not as worried about. I read over chapter one and two, and read over my notes. I feel that I won't do that bad on the statistics test, hopefully. While I was studying for statistics, my friend helped me print out my biology notes. I didn't want him to print it out for me because there's so much notes that I feel like I'm wasting their paper. But, because he insisted, I caved in and he helped me print out my notes.
I'm really worried about tomorrow, I feel like I'm going to fail the test. That's nothing new though, I hate the teacher, he can't teach.

3/2/11

I am dying of sleepiness, and the lack of sleep I've been getting. I am so tired that during the last class today, I rest my head down and I started sleeping. I didn't mean to fall asleep, but my eyes just couldn't stay open and I fell asleep. For the whole day, my body has been feeling random pains in random parts of my body. At first, I felt a pain in the back of my back that affected my breathing. During basketball practice, I felt that pain in my back again. Because of that, I told Mr. Lee to let me off on the last rounds of stair climbing.
I've been feeling really off today, I don't know why. I can't seem to do anything right, and it makes me disappointed. Even though I'm super tired, I still managed to finish a lot of work. In class, I finished half of my homework for one class, and I put off the rest still weekends.
For some random reason, I've been looking forward the end of the day for this past week. Not like the end of the day as in right before I go to sleep, but the end as in when I'm leaving school and going back home.
I'm really mad and stressed these couple days because there's so many tests! There's an English test on poems tomorrow, a biology and statistics test on Friday, then a French test next week. It's not testing week or something, why are there so many tests?! Can't this school just let the students relax and not have to be stressed out 24/7 for just one week?!

3/1/11

It's the first day of March, I'm really excited for some reason! In eleven more days it's my best friend's birthday, except that she's in California. I'm so tired today, but I didn't sleeping in any class. I was working in all my classes, even in math and biology. In statistics we learned a new section, but for the rest of the 30 minutes we had time to review. Instead of reviewing, most people just sat around chatting. In musical production, Amanda and I were watching a Taiwanese drama. After school I finished my history homework right away. The cake from yesterday wasn't finished yet, so we ate most of it today, but there's a still a little piece left. I was really happy with this cake, because a lot of people ate it and said it was delicious.
There wasn't much to do today, but I still stayed after school till six at night. I got home really early today, like around 6:30 pm. I watched television till 7pm, then my mom took me out to dinner till 8 pm. The dinner wasn't good at all. The food wasn't good.
There was a lot of homework today, I finished homework around 11:45, almost midnight.
My eyes are really tired, but I finished all my homework and I'm going to go to sleep now. Good night.

2/28/11

It's Monday, the 28th of February and there's no leap year today. Today was a special day for me, one month since hoopla. I brought the cake I made on Saturday to school and gave it to my friend. I slept at two in the morning of Sunday to make the finishing touches on the cake. After lunch today, my stomach started hurting really bad. I stayed at the clinic room for the whole period. When it was time for expository writing, I went to class late. I wasn't sure whether to go to class or not, but I decided it was better for me to attend class. During that class, I couldn't help but to fall asleep.
After school, basketball class was kind of fun. This was the first hot practice in a long time. While practicing shooting and doing lay ups, I started to sweat. Worse than that was we played a full court game. The practice wasn't for long though, it was only for ten minutes. I had no idea what I was doing, I shot the basketball over the board! I don't know why, but Mr. Lee was complimenting me a lot today. He kept telling me "nice shot," and "ran well." It was nice to hear those things from him, but I felt like I didn't actually deserve those compliments.
After practice I ate the cake I made with my friend. It was good, but not the best. May be because I've eaten a lot of those cake so I'm use to the taste.
It was a pretty good Monday after all, even though class is always the same.

2/27/11

2/24/11

2/23/11

2/22/11

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j2w8nTm7Yrs

2/21/11

To all viewers, I am truly sorry about the inconvenience. The camera and the web cam of Jean Hsu is having technical difficulties, enabling her to record any type of videos. In place of a video report, here's a written report of Jean Hsu's day.
Today, on the 21st of February, 2011, Jean Hsu had an amazingly boring and typical day. The day was almost determined to be either a boring, or a really bad day. First, starting off the morning by waking up late at around 7:30. There was no time to her breakfast. Then, during her World History class, she only had ten minutes to study for the test. She doesn't know how she did on the test, but she's hoping for the best. During her last two classes of the day, it made things better. In French class, she was laughing uncontrollably for the first 30 minutes, at the end of the class, the teacher showed a clip. In expository writing, the teacher showed the students a movie. The movie was quite interesting, which Jean really liked. After school, she attended basketball practice. It was a hard working practice. While playing four on four, Jean Hsu made a shot, and that made her really happy since she rarely makes in shots.
Jean Hsu went home around 8:30 at night, then procrastinating until 10:40 at night. She started doing homework at 11 pm and now, she's frustrated with her math homework. Jean's really furious with her math homework, but she still has to do it, unwillingly.

2/20/11

2/17/11

2/16/11

2/15/11

2/14/11

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

2/13/11

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cXmFr1AugUc

2/10/11

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0wsbLAOm4Uc

2/9/11

Today's my mom's birthday! Sorry, the video's in bad quality because I used my web cam.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQPZ3jvE5dk

2/8/11

I had my hair up because I didn't want to go through the trouble of taking another shower.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l9JAY26Sz64

Last day of January!

My video is five minutes long because there was some really fun things that happened today. I had to tell people, so I thought "why not say it in my vlog?!" So, I did and I've realized how funny I look when I talk.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGtGpDndo_M

My first Vlog! :O

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MJCFKVkDHLY

It's my first time vlogging so it was really awkward. I hope I'll get use to it later on, but this time, it's really weird. I still think it's really weird to see myself on youtube. Only the people with the link can watch it, it's not open to everyone on youtube. :P

Thursday, 27 January, 2011

I'm so pumped up for tomorrow, because the Hoopla is tomorrow! Some people stayed after school today to help with the decoration, but a lot didn't come. A lot of the boys basketball team didn't come, and I thought that was really unacceptable. The people who came and helped were Pamela, Godwin, Sean, Jack, Wanyi, Caroline, Jingmin, Esther, Christine Lu, Christine Hsu, Gary, Jackie, Misty, Che-hung, Teresa and I. Up til around nine at night, people started to leave. I left with Esther at around 9:45, I haven't stayed at school that late before. I'm really excited for tomorrow, I don't want classes tomorrow, skip to after school! There's pink and red balloons all over, little basketball hanging from the ceiling, and there's games, food, and a dance floor!
I really don't have anything to say about today, because nothing big really happened, except the Hoopla decorations. While working, we were also chatting, so it made it much more fun! For the first time, Jack told me that I'm actually really sophisticated and polite. He said that I'm actually a really gentle person. I've never heard anyone say that about me before, and I thought it was really nice of him. But, right after he made fun of me. Ha ha. Hoopla is going to be better than the winter dance, I hope that a lot of people will come!

Wednesday, 26 Januray, 2011

I am so tired today, I feel like crashing down on my bed and sleeping. School was the usual, which of course is a bad thing. I don't particularly like Monday and Wednesdays, because my favorite class is Musical Production and I only have that one Tuesday and Friday. This week is special though, tomorrow is a Tuesday schedule! Today, supposedly Daniel was suppose to bring his statistics book to me, but he forgot. I hope he doesn't forget tomorrow!
Today after school, the girls had a practice game. Frank, Vincent, Claire and Annie came and helped us. I feel so mad about it, because I did so bad. I always run forward, but forget to look back at the ball. Another thing also is that I really stupid on court, I don't know what to do. Even though Lee said I improved, I still need to listen more to what others are telling me. I hate how I can't get this! I'm trying, but yet, I still suck! We lost by two points, which makes me really mad, because I had chances to score, but I missed or messed up. I only made in one shot. I was really mad and sad at myself, so I wasn't really in a happy mood. My eyes kept tearing up whenever I thought about how stupid I was on the court, but I didn't cry though.
I decided to bring home my Monday/ Wednesday books, so my parents gave me a ride home today. Books are so heavy!
For the past few days I've been really down, and I'm crying over little things. I don't mind crying, but just not at school. I really don't want to lose control over my emotions, and one thing that keeps me in control is my friends. Not just any friends though, only friends like the ones I had in America. It's different here, because I know I can trust my friends, but I choose not to. The feelings not right, so I basically keep most things to myself, and I hate that. If I keep too many things to myself, I eventually end up bursting into tears randomly at school. THAT'S IS NOT GOOD AT ALL! My head hurts now, because I'm so tired. I'm going to go to sleep now, bye!

Tuesday, 25 January, 2011

It's the first Tuesday of the semester and I had two new classes to go to today! Statistic was actually kind of fun, even though I was really nervous at first. I thought it was Elaine who's teaching the class, but then it turns out James is teaching the class. I feel bad for Sean because he has three of his classes, one after another on Tuesdays and Fridays. This week, Thursday's schedule is a Tuesday schedule so more for him. Ha ha. I started reading Dear John the book, and so far, it's really good! I already watched the movie, and the book isn't bad. There's a lot of details so it makes it more touching.
Today was the first Musical Production class for me, and it was OK. We read over the play, and we practiced the Happy Ending Song. I haven't been singing for a long time, especially musical singing. I sing regularly but it was always just random fun singing. Musical singing is more serious because you have to warm up so your throat doesn't get hurt. I miss singing. I was in choir back in California, and I sang everyday. Gosh, how I miss the old days!
After school the basketball teams and student council helped us out with decorations for Hoopla. We also chose jobs today, and Wanyi and I are in charge of the desserts! The funny thing is, at first, there was a Kissing Booth. It was so funny, but it got changed. It's still a booth though, and both the boys and the girls basketball team are required to be in it. I'm not scared or anything though, because I don't think I'll be chosen, so no worries for me!
I really don't want Wednesday to come, because there's a game tomorrow. It's just a game between our own people, but I really don't want to play. I don't know why, but I think about playing a game, I dread that idea. I think the only reason I'm still in the team is because I love the family feel, but not the actual sport.

Monday, 24 January, 2011

Today was a pretty fun day, especially since I was really hyper most of the time. In English, we had our final, which I didn't do really good on. Also, Mr. Dahl told us that we're going to do vlogging starting since next week. I really excited to vlog, but I'm scared it'll turn out really bad. I've always wanted to try vlogging, but I never got an excuse to do it. Finally, now I get a chance to see what vlogging is like! When I first went into the French classroom, I saw my name as the first person on the test list. The test list is the list of people who got the 5 highest scores in the class. I got a 93.5% on the French final, which isn't that bad. After school, I went to practice in the super windy and cold weather. I was the only person wearing shorts, but I wasn't the coldest. For some reason, I felt really hyper and wanted to play basketball today. It was really weird, but I like the feeling, because I get to learn more about basketball!
After basketball practice, I got really tired. Being too hyper comes with its own consequences! Right after, I went home and got money, then met up with Jingmin and went to downtown. The crazy thing was, I saw my brother there! I saw my brother's friend because I thought he looked really familiar, then I saw my brother! It was really crazy because I rarely see my brother outside of home. I bought a little vest for my dress, but the sleeves are too small! Too bad, I'll just ask my mom to fix it later. I finally know what I'm wearing to Hoopla, but still I think I look really bad in it. I hate it! That's why I have decided to go on a diet! Not an actual diet, but just eating a bit less so I'm still being a healthy teenager!

Sunday, 23 January, 2011

I can't believe the first semester ended already, it went by so fast! On Friday, Jack showed the drama clip he made. The video almost made me cry because I started thinking about how he's going to graduate this year. For the whole Friday, I was studying for psychology. We had a final that day, and I wanted to do good since it's a final and it was the last class I'm attending. On Friday, my elementary friend came and visited me! We hung out from 5 to 8 pm. I haven't seen her in three months, and I missed her. On Saturday, I went to downtown with Wanyi to buy stuff for the Hoopla. I bought a lavender colored flats, and a lavender colored sweater. I wanted the sweater to look good with my black dress, but when I tried it on today, it doesn't match AT ALL! I'm so mad about that, and annoyed! Today, on Sunday, I woke up at 8 am because I had to get to Taipei early this morning. At around 11:20 am, I got a haircut. I guess I like it, but I hate the fact that when I move my head my bangs become straight across bangs. On the way back to HsinChui, I asked my brother to come to the Hoopla. I can't believe I did that, I'm kind of scared if he does come. Today I also found a really good song, called F**kin' Perfect by P!nk. It's really good because the lyrics are deep and the tune's really good too. It makes me cry, it matches how I feel.