I am so tired today, I feel like crashing down on my bed and sleeping. School was the usual, which of course is a bad thing. I don't particularly like Monday and Wednesdays, because my favorite class is Musical Production and I only have that one Tuesday and Friday. This week is special though, tomorrow is a Tuesday schedule! Today, supposedly Daniel was suppose to bring his statistics book to me, but he forgot. I hope he doesn't forget tomorrow!
Today after school, the girls had a practice game. Frank, Vincent, Claire and Annie came and helped us. I feel so mad about it, because I did so bad. I always run forward, but forget to look back at the ball. Another thing also is that I really stupid on court, I don't know what to do. Even though Lee said I improved, I still need to listen more to what others are telling me. I hate how I can't get this! I'm trying, but yet, I still suck! We lost by two points, which makes me really mad, because I had chances to score, but I missed or messed up. I only made in one shot. I was really mad and sad at myself, so I wasn't really in a happy mood. My eyes kept tearing up whenever I thought about how stupid I was on the court, but I didn't cry though.
I decided to bring home my Monday/ Wednesday books, so my parents gave me a ride home today. Books are so heavy!
For the past few days I've been really down, and I'm crying over little things. I don't mind crying, but just not at school. I really don't want to lose control over my emotions, and one thing that keeps me in control is my friends. Not just any friends though, only friends like the ones I had in America. It's different here, because I know I can trust my friends, but I choose not to. The feelings not right, so I basically keep most things to myself, and I hate that. If I keep too many things to myself, I eventually end up bursting into tears randomly at school. THAT'S IS NOT GOOD AT ALL! My head hurts now, because I'm so tired. I'm going to go to sleep now, bye!
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