Wednesday, 19 Januray, 2010

I can't believe Mr. Lee is still telling us to climb the stairs. I'm a bit scared of stairs now, climbing them makes me scared. Before starting to climb them, my legs were already starting to wobble. Somehow, this time we were a lot fast than before. The first round was 1 minutes and 45 seconds, the second and third time was a minutes and fifteen seconds. Esther, Jingmin, Wanyi and I were all really shocked, because our usual time is 1 minutes and 45 seconds or above. Today's practice didn't have to do with basketball strategies or anything, just working out. It's the basketball B-team's game tomorrow so Lee has to help Rick to get them in good shape. After practice I stayed a bit with Wanyi and then Lee suddenly told me to play Ariel. I got so scared, because Ariel's really good! We played two on two but I thought I did really bad, even though it's just practice. Lee told me that I should know what I'm doing more, and not wondering what to do. I got really mad and sad at myself. I really try to know what to do but I get scared and scared that Lee will blame me... I hate it that I can't do well in anything, especially sports! It really gets on my nerves, and I can't do anything about it! For the rest of the day I was really down. I couldn't stop thinking about what Lee said, and keep blaming myself. Thinking about it makes me sad and mad all over again!