4/20/11

I can't believe how useless I am, I know I shouldn't be saying that but that's how I feel right now. I feel like I can't do anything, anything I do is bad and never good enough. I know that whatever I think I'm good at, there will always be people who can do it better. I know I have to accept the fact that where ever I go, there's people better than me. I just can't accept the fact that I can't do anything well, especially the things I like. I can't do that, the least I can do is be smart and work hard in school. Still, I can't do that either. I didn't get the grade that I want, so I'm in a bad mood. My friend told me that I shouldn't be sad over my grades, it's better than a lot of other people, but I just can't help it. I'm not them, I have my own standards, and they be higher or lower than others. It doesn't matter, because even if my parents to nag at me, I'll still feel the guilt. I feel stupid, slow, worthless, and useless. I can't do anything good, and even if I can, it's still not good enough. I just don't know what I am actually good at to redeem myself.